Sometimes I fear health professionals are fighting a losing battle.
Where people who are very sick, and sometimes dying, choose to ignore evidence and medical expertise and walk away from treatments that may save their lives. Instead they opt for alternative therapies that might meet their emotional needs, but are backed by little more than anecdotes and personal experiences.
They do this because they are scared and feeling completely alone, but their doctors are often oblivious to this. I know this because I’ve been in the hospital bed myself.
I consider myself a man of science. I was trained as a scientist, have worked as a science communicator and am now studying to become a doctor.
But at the age of 28, I was diagnosed with advanced bowel cancer and told I needed aggressive treatments.
When this happened, I found myself drawn to treatments that had little evidence — in a bid to take back control of my body and do something that would help me beat this disease.
I was on the brink of saying no to conventional treatment. I considered abandoning the medicine that in my head I knew would save me, but in my heart terrified me.
Pleading for time
In a small crowded room in a busy hospital, I pleaded with my doctors: “Can’t you just take the colon, or rectum and leave my bladder and reproductive organs alone?”
“Can’t I just delay the surgery for now and spend the next six months working out, eating healthy, and meditating?”
I made this plea because I was petrified. I was facing chemotherapy, radiation, and major surgery — that I might not survive. If I did survive, it had the potential to leave me with erectile dysfunction and two bags permanently hanging off me to collect my urine and faeces.
This fear propelled me head first into exploring other therapies and treatments — meditation, acupuncture, energetic healing and juicing.
These gave me a sense of power over my body, as though I could have an effect on the outcome of my cancer, and it wasn’t in the hands of others alone.
My doctors didn’t agree. At our meeting they warned me, unequivocally, that they don’t see people who try alternative methods “until they are crippled by pain and it’s too late to save them”.
Their opinion was: you have cancer, we have the treatments that can cure this.