Casey Veal lost her 10-month-old son Zayden in the most brutal way possible. Now, she’s written a beautiful open letter to honour her son’s memory ahead of a fundraiser this weekend.

In April last year, a Supreme Court jury in Victoria found 19-year-old Harley Hicks guilty of entering Casey Veal’s home in Victoria on June 15, 2012, and beating her son Zayden to death.

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Hicks was high on the drug ice when he murdered the 10-month-old boy using a makeshift baton.

Now, almost three years since the unimaginably awful death of her baby, brave Casey Veal has written a stunning open letter to her little boy.

She has published the letter ahead of a skydiving fundraiser she’ll be holding today, Saturday 21 March — which she hopes will bring her peace, and make her feel closer to her son’s spirit.

Casey with her baby boy Zayden.

Ms Veal told Mamamia she hoped her charity skydive — which will raise funds to build ‘Where Angels Play: Zayden’s memorial playground’ in Bendigo, Victoria — will also help bring her peace.

“I believe skydiving will be the closest I can be to my angel in heaven — that during the free fall in the divine silence I will feel that connect again with my son, that I will be able to let go of what has been holding me down,” she told Mamamia.

She said that while she was “a little anxious” about the jump, she was “so very, very excited to achieve such a courageous action” and that her eldest son Xavier was excited to see his mum embrace the challenge.

Casey Veal and her partner are skydiving on Saturday for the fundraiser.

Ms Veal wrote the open letter ahead of her skydive “to help free myself of the guilts, the wrongs that I cannot take responsibility for”, she told Mamamia.

“It has taken a long time and a lot of healing to reach this point and feel brave enough to publish my thoughts,” she added.

An edited version of the letter, republished with Ms Veal’s permission, is below.

Baby Zayden Veal-Whitting tragically lost his life in 2012.

Casey and her parents.

Baby Zayden Veal-Whitting tragically lost his life in 2012.

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If you want to donate to Zayden’s Army, you can find out more at www.facebook.com/zaydensarmy