When Robert 'R' Kelly was convicted on charges including racketeering, sexual exploitation of a child, bribery and sex trafficking on Monday, his ex-wife's heart was "in two places".
Part with the survivors who had the courage to come forward and share their stories of abuse, and the rest with her three children who must now live with the knowledge of what their father has done.
"My heart breaks as a mother because this is now the legacy that my children will have to deal with and their children's children," Andrea Kelly told British station ITV.
"I have the ability to separate and distance myself from it. But his blood runs through my children's veins; it's part of their DNA and they couldn't escape it even if they wanted to."
"I paid for my name in blood, sweat and tears."
Andrea was 19 when she met R. Kelly. It was the mid-1990s. She was recruited as one of the backup dancers for his first solo tour, before later being promoted to principal dancer and choreographer.
Offstage, their relationship developed into a romantic one. They married in '96 when she was 22 and went on to have three children.
But close to a decade after their marriage ended, Andrea publicly alleged that theirs had been a union scarred by physical, sexual and emotional abuse.
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She claimed that her ex-husband left her with bruises that she'd have to hide on stage. That she lived in constant fear. That she spent years "walking on eggshells" around his explosive temper.
"[He could be set off by] anything from the milk being too cold or not cold enough for breakfast. It could be anything from, 'I told you not to wear that — it's too revealing.' It could be if I answered him the wrong way, if he felt there was too much tone in my voice," she told The View in 2018.
Andrea filed a restraining order against him in 2005 after an alleged physical assault, but otherwise did not take abuse allegations to police due to the belief she would get nowhere in the face of his power, wealth and influence.
She ultimately spoke up in recent years in the hope that it would help his other victim-survivors obtain justice and to set an example to her children and other young women.
"I still say, 'I was married but I was never a wife,' and I don’t want anyone [else to experience that] ... especially the younger generation," she told Page Six in 2020.