It isn’t a secret that most people know I fell pregnant at just fifteen years old but I wanted to tell my story without editing or highlighting negative perspectives as many media posts have done recently. I want to be a positive influence for other teenage parents or maybe just inspire one person, one young mother to finish their education or dreams they held before falling pregnant. So here goes…
I had been dating my boyfriend for roughly three months before I realised that something was up. We weren’t exactly being safe and I had been under the impression that he couldn’t have children. I was a fifteen year old girl thinking that I was invincible and I was a little uneducated on the topic too. I was attending a Catholic school and abstinence was talked about more than how to prevent a pregnancy but I wasn’t completely naive, I did have some knowledge and knew there were risks when you have sex. Sex wasn’t a topic that was discussed in my household openly, my parents were fairly strict and when they found out I had lost my virginity I was punished, so I didn’t feel that I could go to either of them for contraception or to even discuss the topic.
I was standing in Coles at the checkout in my private school uniform, back when self-serve wasn’t an option and handed the lady the pregnancy test and the few other items I was purchasing in hopes to disguise what I was buying. I was working at a small bakery at the time and used what little money I had to buy the test. I took the test home and hid it from my parents and my twin sister who I shared a bedroom with. It wasn’t until later that night after everyone was asleep that I thought about taking the test. I got up quietly not to wake my sister, went to the toilet and took the test. Only one line appeared and the test was negative.
A rush of relief fell over me and I hid the test under my computer key board with the intention to bury it in the bin the next morning. The next morning I woke up and got dressed and ready to leave for another day of school but when I grabbed the pregnancy test I discovered there were now two lines. I suddenly realised I didn’t wait long enough for the test to turn positive. I crumpled to the floor in shock when my twin sister walked into our bedroom, she knew something was wrong immediately, so I showed her the test and she just said “What are you going to do?” I can’t even remember what I answered but I had no idea how I was going to tell my parents or my boyfriend. I texted two of my close friends to warn them I was pregnant and a complete mess but I put on a brave face for my mother and siblings as we drove to school. That day felt like it dragged on forever, my best friend and I skipped class together hiding in the toilets and around the school trying to figure out what I was going to do. I called my boyfriend from my mobile phone in the school bathrooms and told him the news, he was less than impressed to say the least but said we can talk more about it later.