The tell-all interview with Diane Sawyer has aired in the United States.

After months of speculation, horrifying tabloid covers and tacky rumours, Bruce Jenner has spoken about his transition.

Note: Bruce has indicated in this interview that he prefers to use the pronoun ‘he’ at this time.

In an exclusive interview with American journalist Diane Sawyer, 65-year-old Bruce, former husband to Kris Jenner, officially confirmed what many have been speculating for months – he is transitioning into a woman.

Read more: The 9 most moving moments from Bruce Jenner’s interview about his transition.

Bruce struggled to hold back tears as he said: “It’s going to be an emotional roller coaster but I’m going to make it through. I’ve been thinking about this day forever and what I should do with my life. How do I tell my story, how do I tell people what I’ve been through? I’ve been thinking about this day forever.”

He admitted to Diane Sawyer that he’s been running away from this revelation.

“I’ve tried to explain it to my children this way. God’s looking down making little Bruce. he’s looking down and he says, what are we going to do with this one. Let’s give him a soul of a female.”

Straight out of the gate it is clear that Bruce deeply feels the weight of his decision.

“My brain is much more female than it is male.”

“I hate the phrase ‘girl stuck in a guy’s body.’ I’m just me.”

Diane asked the question whether Bruce was a woman and he replied, “Yes. For all intents and purposes.”

He’s keen to make a difference with his story: “What I’m doing is going to do some good and we’re going to change the world.”

At 8 or 9 years-old, Bruce admits to trying on his sister’s dress. He admitted it made him “feel good”. Even today, he looks at women and thinks: “How lucky are they to wake up in the morning and be themselves.'”

Bruce makes clear that his transition is not about his sexuality. He is and has always been heterosexual: “Sexuality is totally different than what my issues are.”

Bruce says he doesn’t identify as gay: “No, I’m not gay. I’ve never been with a guy.”

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Bruce admits to telling his first wife, Chrystie, he was confused about his gender. Though Chrystie was loving, she thought: “Like most women she thought ‘I can fix that.'”

Bruce claims that his gender issues was one of the big reasons why he broke up with his second wife, Linda, in 1984. He admits: “I wasn’t as fair as I should’ve been to the women I married. I’ve apologized to everybody. I’ve apologized my entire life.”

Related: Finally, a magazine cover of Bruce Jenner that isn’t demeaning.

Bruce admits that when he nears 40, he saw a therapist and he began transitioning. In the 80s he started hormone therapy for five years. But he stopped his hormone therapy in the 80s out of fear of hurting his children and the teachings of the Bible.

He admits to feeling like a fraud, especially when giving motivational speeches where he felt like a “liar”. He’d return to his hotel room so he could wear women’s clothing.

Bruce is providing an insight into his private world, but click through this gallery for insight into the very public life he has been leading (Post continues after the gallery)

Bruce Jenner and his girls

Bruce with his youngest daughters Kendall and Kylie.

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Jenner family holiday.

Bruce and Kris.

The Kardashian Jenner clan.

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Bruce Jenner and his family on the red carpet.

Bruce Jenner playing golf.

Bruce Jenner with Kathie Lee Gifford.

Bruce and Kim.

Bruce and Kylier

Bruce says he told Kris Jenner about his hormone therapy when they first met and she saw him in women’s clothing. He said: “When you love somebody, you had a tendency. You don’t want to hurt them.”

“Kris and I had so many great years together and we raised phenomenal children.”

And for those who were wondering: “I loved Kris and I had a wonderful life with her. I learned a lot from her. I thought we had a pretty good sex life.”

But now in his 60s, Bruce realised that he didn’t want to die living “in someone else’s body”.

He says his transition was “hard on Kris”: “Kris is a good woman, I got no complaints with her. Honestly, if she had been really good with it, understanding, we’d still be together.”

Bruce talked about his lowest point: when he went to get his Adam’s apple shaved down and the appointment got leaked. The cameras were waiting. The invasion of privacy was so terrible the reality star admitted he thought about suicide.

Bruce admitted he was terrified to tell his children. He thought, “I can’t let myself hurt them.”

The first person he told was his son, Brandon, who appeared in the interview — he says Bruce didn’t tell him the “best way” and that his dad’s having to hide was “tragic”.

But Brandon says: “I’m getting an upgraded version of my dad and parent.”

Kim Kardashian was the first person to know about Bruce’s transition because she caught him dressing as a woman. Bruce said: “It was like a big secret in the family that we never talked about again.” But when Kim asked again,”I told her all my issues, and then, after it was over with, I felt much better.”

When Bruce told all the Kardashians and Kendall and Kylie, they all cried — including Rob.

Bruce says “Kimberly” has been the most accepting. And apparently it was he husband Kanye West who turned her around. Kanye apparently told Kim: “I can be married to the most beautiful woman in the world, I can have the most beautiful daughter in the world, but I’m nothing if I can’t be me.”

Khloe has had the “toughest time” with Bruce’s transition. Bruce said “Khloe’s had the toughest time with it because she’s had a lot of losses in her life. She lost her father at a young age and Lamar had his issues.” Bruce says Kourtney is also struggling because of her three young children.

Kendall and Kylie know where they stand: “We love our dad very much. he has the biggest heart. if he’s happy, we’re happy.”

Bruce says he’s not a spokesperson for the transgender community but he wants to work with them. He’s been moved by the suicides and murders of the transgender community: “I hope we can save some lives here.”

He says that he often wonders in church: “How does God see me? But then I thought, maybe this is my cause in life, to deal with this issue.”

Bruce is used to gentle ribbing from his family. When Kim asked Bruce if he’s a tomboy because of his interest in racing cars, etc, he said: “Yeah, I guess I am!”

He’s been so brave in speaking about his struggles publicly, but he’s not ready to give everything away. He wants to keep some