sigh - i googled this topic & here i am. 63 years old & still feeling guilty. i'm the older sis. yes, i fucked up in the past & tried & tried to repair things - i am the bigger sis afterall.. my sister is really close with my brother - they go places, travel, live near each other & even when all together i feel like the outsider. iam 63 !! our mom kinda set this whole thing up of not letting us get close, but, hey, that's for a therapist to look at. now..well, now my life was going tremendous & then something came up & there she was & all the pain too. i just don't think i can fully resolve this in my heart & mind. c& yet i know i wouldn't let anyone treat me this way. could use some recommendaitons. wonderful, painful article - but necessary. thank you.