Your story sounds just like mine and I wanted every little detail too. I don’t regret knowing details, but it did certainly make things harder. I felt that I couldn’t get past and forgive something I didn’t know. It will be hard for a long time but it does get better. It’s almost 3 years for me and the sting is starting to lessen, but there are definitely some big triggers too. I’m so sorry you’re hurting. I wish I could give you a hug x