Thank you so much for sharing Erin. You are doing really well even to articulate this! Babies are wonderful but even in the best of circumstances they do tear down your sense of self. I think maybe they are meant to - and then rebuild you into someone new (someone stronger and deeper). For a time though, a time which feels like forever, you are just rubble on the ground. And without your people around it feels impossible. I won’t offer any patronising advice except to say let yourself be angry sometimes, and believe it will pass. And that you can do it. You are doing it.