I am currently going through a very similar experience - having a miscarriage right when I'm due to deliver a major project at work! This is my second miscarriage in 7 months, my first one being a similar situation to yours with a low heart rate at the first scan and none at the second. This one was just a whole lot of bleeding and suspected ectopic. 

I'm incredibly fortunate to have an amazing 5yo daughter (light of my life doesn't even begin to describe her!), but also lost our second daughter in late 2019 through TFMR due severe congenital abnormalities. All but my first were IVF babies.

I have been struggling so much more with this miscarriage compared to the last - it's like all three of my losses are hitting me hard all at once, and I'm overwhelmed by a sense of having no control over my life and the fate of my family. 

Your story however has helped - I might be by myself in my grief, but I'm not alone, and my struggles are real and valid and shared. My fertility journey has been a long hard road and I’ve felt misunderstood and isolated throughout most of it. I'm not yet at the end of it either, holding out hope for the miracle of another healthy babe in arms. 

But talking more about the struggles of infertility and the losses so many of us experience, is so important for bringing it all into the light, and in the process helping those around us to better understand and support us. So thank you again for sharing your very personal experience and contributing to that effort. Xx