This is beautifully written and very true! Time does heal old wounds and creeps up on you without you even noticing. I identify with this from the heartbreaks I have suffered in the past. Lovely piece 

I never grew up dreaming of my wedding day and frankly didn’t care if I was never married, all I knew from a young age was that I wanted to be a mother. Although I am engaged (my partner is much more interested in marriage) we started IVF/TTC 2 years before we were engaged and owned property together before then. I am now pregnant and I couldn’t care less if we never do a wedding. This has literally nothing to do with covid. Weddings seem like such a waste of money (I’m not even looking forward to mine and am putting off planning it)