The last 2 months in the Mamamia office have been interesting. You see, a bunch of us have been doing the Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation; and apart from the occasional lapse in judgment that causes us to shove a mince pie in our faces, we’ve generally done pretty well at keeping each other on track. (It helps that I sit next to Nicky so that we can compare lunch choices and discuss how healthy vermicelli actually is.)
When I started 12WBT, I was intrigued to see how it would all turn out. I’ve had many attempts at reinventing my health and fitness over the years – each of which have ended up failing for whatever silly reasons.
There was the time I tried to give up sugar and, two weeks later, ended up gorging myself on several full-size chocolate bars. Fail.
There was the time I tried to get up every day at 5:30am to go running before work – and did it twice before giving up. Fail.
There was the time I tried to eat no processed food whatsoever… and then I ate a caramel slice literally within 30 minutes of making that promise to myself. Fail.
The list goes on. So many attempts, so many fails. Because, throughout the years, I’ve always had this little voice popping up in my head, telling me to just give up on my goals and sleep/eat the damn Tim Tams/get off the treadmill.
FYI, you should know this post is sponsored by 12WBT. But all opinions expressed by the author are 100% authentic and written in their own words.
And inevitably, I have. Despite the fact that I feel so much better when I’m fit and healthy and eating well, I’ve spent many years falling off the wagon. And I’ve never quite understood why – because there was never any real excuse for it. I would just find an excuse, lose interest, and go right back to my old, unhealthy ways.
You’ll all be pleased to know that 12WBT has been completely different. Because I finally twigged, learned exactly what that little voice in my head is.
It’s self-sabotage. Plain and simple self-sabotage.
You see, as part of the program, I get to watch clever little weekly videos that have set off many a lightbulb moment. And in one of the videos, Mish (I feel like we’re close enough to be on nickname basis by now) explained the concept of self-sabotage. Essentially: setting yourself up to fail. Talking to yourself in negative language, using destructive words. Making excuses and not holding yourself accountable to the choices you make.
“Using today’s problem as the reason why you can’t continue on your chosen journey is a flawed argument,” she explained. “In fact it makes no sense… Your mother-in-law is staying with you, so you couldn’t get up early to train? Huh? Your car broke down so you had to eat a block of chocolate and throw the whole idea in. What?”
It hit me like a wrecking ball (am I still allowed to use Miley Cyrus references or is that soooo November 2013 by now?). That is me. Today’s problems are what I used to live for.
Before 12WBT, I was far too quick to let life get in my way. The minute something came up – an injury, an appointment, an unexpected work commitment – I let my exercise and my food habits to the wayside. The minute I was tired or a bit sick or a food delivery came into the office – I told myself, “oh, it’s just this once, I’ll eat healthy and work out tomorrow.”