by SHANNON BRADLEY-COLLEARY
I’ve been the same weight for approximately five years. 63.5 kilograms. Sometimes I’m up to 64, sometimes down to 63, but almost always exactly at 63.5. I am 5 foot 6 1/2 inches tall. I’m 46.
So let’s shark about the internet and find out if I’m really fat…
1. The National Heart Lung and Blood Institute says a normal BMI is 18.5 – 24.9. When I calculate my BMI I come out at 22.3 which is well within the normal, healthy range.
2. Am-i-fat.com says that if I were a female in the U.S. Army my healthy weight would be between 63 and 66kg. Hoo-ahh!
3. Myoptumhealth.com says a women my height should weigh between 63 and 71kg.
Clearly I’m in a healthy weight range. So I’ve decided to do something radical.
I’m not going to lose weight.
Say what? That’s it. I’ve relinquished 58kg. Would I like 58kg? Yes. Do I need it? No. I’ve been nit-picking myself about those ten pounds for five years. I’ve been wanting to get back to my pre-child, pre-40s size. Well I’m done with it and this is why.
The unretouched girl below is 25-years old and weighs 57kg. She’s a size 8. She doesn’t like her body. She’s broken it down into parts as if it were a car. Some parts are acceptable, others she hates.
She thinks she has cellulite on her bum:
She thinks she needs liposuction on her thighs:
She thinks her breasts are too small:
She is me. 21 years ago.
With a media-induced case of Body Dysmorphic Disorder. Deceased Hollywood headshot photographer Helmut Lipschitz took these for a gallery show he was producing. I allowed him to do so as a woman trying to see my real body. Not the inadequate one I thought I had.
I look at this girl now and wonder, “Why did she even wear any clothes? She could’ve just walked around naked all the time!” Whenever I get the chance I show everyone my nudes. Henry just sighs and says, “I see you’ve managed to get your nudes out again.”