I have epilepsy.
I don’t know anyone else with it, no-one in my family has it. My doctor thinks I got it after one too many blows to the head when I was a kid, just falling over on concrete and other normal kid accidents, although I was hit with a discus in high school, so that may have been the real cause of my head injury.
I was diagnosed when I was 20 – I was working in my first job in radio as a journalist, and woke up one day looking like I’d been beaten, with bruises all over my face. After assuring the doctor in emergency that I hadn’t been beaten by anyone, I was sent to a neurologist who eventually diagnosed epilepsy. I was prescribed medication and went happily on my way – it was manageable back then, and didn’t really impact on my life. Except I put on a lot of weight from the drugs.
A move interstate and switching neurologists saw me put onto a newer medication, which worked for a while and I lost the weight. But then the drugs stopped controlling my seizures, and I was put onto another medication, and another one again. Epilepsy is very difficult to control, and everyone has different types of seizures. I’m currently taking 2 different types of drugs twice a day, but still have seizures, or a “funny head” as I call it, at least twice a month.
I often have the type of seizure most people associate with epilepsy, when I fall to the floor and jerk around, What people don’t realise is that it’s not just moving around on the floor, it’s using every muscle in your body, and it’s physically and emotionally exhausting. After one of these seizures I cry, am very emotional and sleep for 12 hours.
Another type of seizure I have is what I call a vague-out, where if you asked me to spell the word cat, I couldn’t. I can’t talk properly during this time, can’t write, my hearing is affected and I just need to go and sleep it off.
I’m 31 now, and have been living with epilepsy for more than a decade. I’m probably never going to outlive it, I will always be an epileptic. I couldn’t get through the day without my medication and my husband Ross, the same man who holds me when I have a seizure and makes sure I don’t bite my tongue. My family and girlfriends are also amazing, like my best friend Candy, who made sure I had orange juice and jelly beans just before I walked down the aisle, as low blood sugar levels affect my head.
Not many people understand epilepsy, they just think you have a seizure, get up and carry on with your day, but it impacts on your life so much more. I’m now facing the prospect of maybe not being able to have children, as one of my medications is known to cause birth defects. There’s also the great side effects from the drugs, including weight gain, memory loss, tiredness, no energy and skin conditions. I have to make sure I get enough sleep every night, and restrict my alcohol, as it’s not conducive with my medication.
I had to make the tough decision a few years ago for my career to take a bit of a backseat to my health, and I left a great job to focus on getting better. I’m back working now, but only about 3 to 4 days a week, and that’s manageable.
I guess what I’d like is for people to be more understanding of epileptics, for bosses and co-workers to understand when a colleague has to call in sick because of a seizure. Aside from family and friends, Epilepsy Action has been so great in helping me and thousands more epileptics deal with our medication, and live ‘normal’ lives.
Epilepsy isn’t one of the sexy conditions, there is a ribbon day (it was last month), but it’s not discussed a lot in the media, and is poorly understood by most people. The majority of Australians don’t realise how much epilepsy impacts on all areas of our lives, from family to employment and dealing with prejudice.
Epilepsy Action helps educate the public and employers about the condition and misconceptions, and like all organisations, always needs more funds for further research into the condition. It took me a long time to start telling people I have epilepsy, and even though it’s impacted on my life in a way I never imagined all those years ago, I really don’t think I’d change things – dealing with this has made me such a stronger person, who just happens to have a “funny head” some times.
Anne Power is a journalist who started who started her career in radio, before moving into television news. She’s married, loves cooking and has a dream to open a cupcake shop one day.



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Hi Anne, thank you for your story. I was diagnosed with epilepsy as an infant, however was lucky enough to grow out of it. There should be more people like you in the world to raise awareness on this illness.
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What a lovely story to read. I am an epileptic who was diagnosed at aged 13 and was placed on one medication. Since then I got married, have happily had two children but then was diagnosed with a brain tumour. I had two major surgeries and my seizures have reduced however still exist. I got through them with support but am unfortuneately on heavy medication. Life goes up and down but I continue on! I love reading other peoples stories as epilepsy has always been hidden however I believe it should be more recognised.
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I’m so glad I wrote this article. I’m clearly not the only person out there who feels scared and isolated by epilepsy sometimes. Society needs to support epileptics more, and hopefully social and employment barriers will be broken down along the way.
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Hey Anne,
Like many of the stories above, I can relate to what you are going through too! I had my first seizure when I was 10 months old and was told when I was a teenager that there was a possibility of it going away. I did have a period where all was good, but as soon as I hit 23 all that changed and I now do not drive!!! Here I am at 32 years of age, I have had many medication changes and experienced many reactions from people throughout the years, but have dealt with each one through life (with a lot of help!)
Like yourself I took a backstep in life with work when I was in my 20′s and now only do 4hrs a day with my job. As for my network of people; if I did not have my husband, family and friends I do not know where I would be sometimes.
I just wish that the media would assist us in spreading the word!!!
I wish you all luck. xx
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Anne,
Thx for sharing your story. Very similar to me. I like that ur working. I’m not working at the moment. If anyone has GOOD suggestions to help with getting work. I’ve been “concentrating on health” for 4 years. I need to be employed but the stigma is really bad. How do you not spend half the interview talking about epilepsy?
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Thank you so much Anne for sharring this important part of your life. I think that you were very brave because it must be rather upsetting for you. You raised a lot of important points about the media, employers and poor community understanding about epilepsy overall. I had my first seizures when I was 2 months then again at 2 years. Each time it was put down to food that did not agree with me. I was fine until I was 13 when it became regular. I had been going to the same GP all my life and he could remember that I had a difficult birth. He told my Mother that he thought I had epilepsy. I was diagnosed at 14. The neurologist told me and my parents that he could have me ”fixed” in about 6 or 7 years and that I would be able to drive a car. That was 40 years ago. For most of this time I have been frightened, living in hope that I would be back to ”normal.” I did not make any attempt to look for a wife because I feared rejection if a told a woman that I had epilepsy. I did not think that I would be wanted. At 50 I decided I had had enough. I now have a female friend who is very understanding about epilepsy. If only I had come to terms with epilepsy at 20, I could very well have a wife and family today.
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Dear Anne,
I am grateful I was able to read your story. It has shown me I’m not alone in my feelings. I too was diagnosed late (at 26)after so many doctors telling me it was all sorts of things including alcohol consumption and make believe on my behalf. I too had to move before correctly diagnosed. I was controllable until my meds went toxic and I fell pregnant. It was a time in my life I have never been so scared. Luckily I had a partner that stayed with me.
although it doesn’t stop the feeling of remoteness with the lack of knowledge and uneasiness in strangers or some friends, regardless of the selfmade jokes of free entertainment and temper tantrums.
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Thank you so much for posting this Anne! Your story is so much like mine – but never have i been able to articulate it in such a way – i read it to my husband list night….and though it made me teary – it made me feel less isolated for the first time in years. Like you – my seizures were initially controlled – but am no going through a period of 4 years of uncontrolled and unpredicatable sezures…..which i hope one day will be a distant memory for myself and anyone else who suffers the same way
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Thank you soooo much for sharing your story!! It means a lot, I have a little boy with epilepsy and don’t know how he feels about it, he is 6 now but no speech. So thank you for giving me a little understanding!!!
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Anne your story is very similar to mine
I had my first sizegure at 19 while giving birth to my eldest .. My epilepsy was cause by a blow to the head as a kid .. I was put on tegratol six weeks after having my eldest after collapsing and having 10 or more sizegures in a space of 3-4 hours and move interstate so i could be close to a nurologist… A year after I had been diagnosed with epilepsy I fell pregnant with my second I was scared at first cause my medication could of caused birth defects .. Now almost 22 and have two beautiful babies and sizegure free for 3 months
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its a condition most people dont understand unfortunately. ive had seizures all my life (50 years) currantly having 4 per week, dont get any warning just come out of them and see the damage to self and things i hit as i go down. thankfully have a loving wife thats there for me. thanks for the article.
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Thank you Anne. My 4 year old son has epilepsy. It’s nice to get an insight into how he must feel. There is not enough media attention given to epilepsy, even though it is more common than autism. It’s great to have someone write about it and educate the public. Thank you.
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My eldest son is almost 20 and was diagnosed with epilepsy 3 years ago.
The first time he had a seizure he was at home thankfully.
He came to and was taken by ambulance to POW hospital in Sydney.
Just after arriving at the hospital, he had another seizure. he continued to have seizures for the next 12 hours.
I have never been so terrified in my entire life. the doctors didn’t know what was causing them and words like brain tumor, brain hemorrhage, stroke were bandied about.
By the time the doctors said epilepsy, in was grateful as I knew thatbitvcould be controlled with medication.
since then he has only had one seizure, he was riding his bike in traffic at the time, but could sense the aura and got to the footpath in time thank god.
thank you for writing this article. I wish you all the best.
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Anne, I have known you well before the diagnosis was made and was one of the first people you told. I have never thought if you as my friend Anne with the epilepsy. Only as Anne ny friend that I have the privilage to have in my life. You are one of the bravest people that I know.
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I’m 100% hetro, but have to comment, you are very beautiful.
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